Saturday, February 26, 2011

Awake the Dream: Part 1

The following is the first part of my heart racing dream from last night:


I had fallen asleep on the trellised-bench at the library

“Ehhhh…. I’m so tired” I murmured to myself

“What do think that’s all about?” Nova said as she looked up ahead of us.
My friend Mare replied “They brought guns.”
“I wanna know what it’s all about!” Nova said.
“Maybe we should just leave?” Ireland said in a concerned tone.

“What are you guys flippin’ bout?” I asked.

“Come on, let’s just go and look for a minute.” Nova urged.
“Not a good idea at all.” Ireland said as she glared at Nova.
“Ummm, I don’t know about all that.” Mare said, Ireland's tone of caution spreading.

“Dude! What are you guys talkin’ about?!”

Then Nova glanced at me from the sidewalk, “Just down the street, duhh.”

We were at the public library on Bedford Avenue, towards the center of town and the sun was overcast with a high fog-like layer of cloud.  There was a woman standing with a cameraman watching a group of soldiers rush into a house just a few yards away from our parked car. No one even watched the news anymore, there was no point. But these two people just kept at it, reporting the news that no one would hear. Even though the world was tilting on the verge of total collapse, there was nothing for those left of us to do but try and keep moving, retain some version of normalcy, hang onto the past and forget that there would be no future. We didn’t have to tell her, this reporter knew she was living in a house of cards just like the rest of us.

It had been three years since the end started. It swept across the planet in a span of three months, two weeks, and six days. The plague swept from the East to our homes in a matter of weeks, no chance of escape.  Breathing became the most terrifying action for every human being upon the planet. You couldn’t escape unless you stopped breathing, which happened to be the choice most people made. No one was left untouched, no one here at least.  It obviously didn’t kill all of us, about half in my town had managed to survive.  And I didn’t feel any different now than in the days before, but it left the survivors incapable of any future. A world void of half its past and all of its future.

Here we were, walking around town for no apparent reason besides passing time. The four of us had made it out fine. “We gonna go take a look?” I asked.
“Yea!” Nova shouted.
“No!” Ireland groand.
“okay” Mare said with a shrug.
“let’s go, I wanna see what the soldiers are doing.  Maybe they are even giving out bread like Wednesday.” So I jogged over towards the woman and the soldiers. A small group of people had already begun to form, watching from the street.  My friends continued following me in tow. Just as we made it up to the group, a man dressed in a nice suit walked up to the reporter and whispered in her ear. She froze and as her face transitioned from one of everyday smiles of joy to one of shock and anxiety it became clear that whatever he had said to her had ruined her day. Then it appeared to look as if he was feeding her lines to say on camera.
She attempted to keep going, just say what he wanted and then move on to the next feed of the day, but she was cracking more with every word. The shock shifted into fear and then into terror.

“what do you think it’s all about?” Mare aked to no one in particular.
“No idea..”
Ireland began to stress her feeling of anxiety at the situation, “Come on, let’s go. Those soldiers didn’t look like they were playing.”
Nova poked Ireland in her side a bit and gave a “Whine whine whi-”

A freckled face teenage girl appeared in the front doorway of the house, followed by a red headed young man and a sad looking older woman. All three wore faces of confusion and fear as they proceeded down the front porch steps.  A group of soldiers followed behind them with guns pointed and faces as if the three were some sort of disgusting criminals.  The man who had been feeding lines to the reporter approached the soldiers, “you know what you’ve got to do. Do it,” he said.

Then the soldiers took their guns and smacked the back of the three’s legs behind the knee, making them crumple to the ground.  “Put your hands up behind your head” one of them ordered”.

Then the suited man looked toward our group of bystanders that had gathered over the past few minutes. He looked us over, then turned back to the soldiers, "take care of those too”.

“guys, we gotta run” and I took off.

Friday, February 25, 2011

Tell Me

“I have been having these really weird thoughts lately… like, is any of this for real? Or not?”

These dreams, in both night and day

My cloth wrappings guard the majority of my face, yet sand whips at my exposed nose and eyes.  Rubbing the corner of my eye to uncake the grains from my skin, I can begin to see the horizon again -the storm is over.  The heat never ceased to bare down upon me, even during the storm, yet now that the brightness of day has reappeared I am even more aware of the burn and sting. I can’t give up. I must keep going, I must make it there.

Beests, they ran across the plain. It was all i could see for miles upon the horizon.  They stormed like wild fire upon the grass. Their only purpose was to get to the other side. One across the rapids. Two across. Three, four, five.  So magnificent, the multitudes of creatures breaching the banks.  And then they poured through in thousands. Black, brown, dust, dirt. The Wildebeest rush to a place of plenty.

Skin dark as ash, a soul as beautiful as sunrise. But this was not a sunrise; this was a sunset for a short life upon this earth.  She looked so feeble. I had seen ants with more power. Yet nothing had the ability to break my heart as much as this child. Just three weeks, that is all she had. Not three left, but three held. There was nothing left, and all I could do was hold her and be near her.  Maybe if we had the supplies, the medicine, … the food. But not here, not now. I had never felt so helpless, and all I wanted was for her to be okay.  Just breathe baby, just breathe. Even as the thought ran through my mind I knew it was too late, and she slipped away. Father had a different plan. I had to let go now.

And I awoke
Tell me, was it just a dream?

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Wibur-chops

Formaldehyde….. Tweezers ….. Blood & Bones…
 Poor little piglet, your loss has brought vast oceans of sadness upon our planet. In the form of painful stench, bone chilling noises, and slimy skin.  Yet the souvenir that I had taken of you made my day a bit more hilarious.  That tooth, that little itty-bitty tooth from your baby-waby mouth. Yes, we (or shall I say ‘I’) did have to suture  your mouth open with a ‘snap’ & a ‘snap’ to reach it; but that didn’t change that  it was such a cute little quarter inch tooth. 
You know what made my day even better? When I made Mare snippety-snip-snip those tiny-winy veins of yours…. Not that the action was so fun at all…. But watching Mare freak and gag and giggle little laughs of horror was priceless.  Accidentally flinging your toe in her general direction was pretty ridiculous too.
Well, I guess it will be a hoot to see what hilariousness I can conjure up out of you next week Wilbur (or at least the different organs we can ‘open up for closer examination’).
With affection and latex gloves,
Your Winged Angel
P.S.
I had pizza for dinner and there is a good possibility that your mother provided the delicious pepperoni and bacon.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

A Feeling Is An Idea With Roots

I recently went into town to grab some grub. Decided to chow on some Japanese, get in touch with my 'roots'; like really get to know my heritage through the food. Sort of like in the show 'Roots', how they unravel their pasts through the things those before them leave behind. In my situation the food would be the thing left behind (forget the fact that it was cooked right there in front of me & that i have no idea what the show 'Roots' is actually about...). So as i ate that scrumptious shrimp & beef din, i began to feel that inward connection. My Jap genes were flowin'. I could almost see the opium feilds, smell the cherry blossoms, touch the Great Wall. Then i realized that none of that made any sense.... im not even japanese.. im filipino... oops
Sincerely,
Your Winged Angel